Shirley Frost - Williams and Perth Special Meetings - May, 2006

Hymn 380

I feel those words we have been singing need to be the earnest prayer and desire of my own heart. Words that David spoke to Solomon in 1 Chronicles 28:9, “Know thou the God of thy father, and serve Him with a perfect heart and with a willing mind: for the Lord searcheth all hearts and understandeth all the imaginations of the thoughts: if thou seek Him, He will be found of thee; but if thou forsake Him, He will cast thee off for ever.” David had learned from a young age, not only the need to be searched by God, but the blessing that comes as a result of God looking into our hearts, our thoughts, spirits – searching us and making it known to us the things that need correcting; things that we need help in; things that must be put right if one day we want to be with Him in eternity.

David, when he was young, knew the searching of God in his own heart and life. He wrote the 139th Psalm also and said, “Lord thou hast searched me and known me.” When he was young, when Samuel was sent to anoint one of the sons of Jesse; he looked on the eldest son and said, “Surely this is the one.” But God looked on the heart and could say of David, “I have found David a man after My own heart.” He was only young then.

At the end of that Psalm he said, “Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: and see if there be any wicked way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.” Unless the Lord can deal with our hearts honestly and justly, we know the heart is deceitful and desperately wicked. I feel today that the Lord is going to search me heart, my spirit by his word; and all that we see in the life and spirit and example of His Son. It’s so necessary and a blessing if we are willing for the searching and to feel that’s what’s going to help us. We don’t want to lose out along the journey.

We have had so many warnings these days and there are some that have lost out, and where does it start? A little thought; something in the spirit that goes on and isn’t dealt with. We were reminded of that Wednesday night in our subject meeting and every time we come before the Lamb. Sunday morning we look at the Lamb of God and the emblems and we remember the life was given and the blood that was shed. In the light of the Lamb we are encouraged to examine our own hearts and search our hearts to see whether there’s anything in us that doesn’t fit in with the sacrifice that comes from heaven that our salvation depends on. That self-examination is necessary but I have been conscious that there are some things that I can miss, and I don’t know in my own heart but the Lord knows.

David said to Solomon that the Lord searched the hearts and knows the thoughts. And if we let Him do the searching, He has the remedy to help and show us. There’s cleansing. The last night Jesus spent with His disciples; that examined them. It was a test when He laid aside His garments, kneeled, and washed their feet. It examined their hearts. He could say, “Now you are clean, but not all.” There was one that didn’t respond. When He said one would betray Him they all said, “Is it I? You reveal to me whether there’s something in me that would cause me to betray you.” Even Judas said, but he went out from there soon after to betray his master. He wasn’t honest in that self-examination and he went out unclean; wasn’t cleansed.

In John 6, Jesus had spoken about the deeper commitment of taking His flesh and blood and being willing for that to be our life, accepting all His provision for ourselves and making it part of our life. There were those that said, “This is a hard saying.” His word was examining them and some had walked with Him. When we think of all God’s Son was willing to lay down for our sakes, could His word be hard to our hearts? When there was evidence of all He was giving so that they could live? Some that day, walked no more with Him because they weren’t willing for His word to bring about the change there that could mean they could continue with Him.

Wonderful to think of Peter and the others, “Lord, to whom shall we go? Thou hast the words of eternal life, and we believe and are sure.” They wanted His searching to continue in their lives; they knew the blessing of it already – “We believe and are sure Thou art the Christ.” That day He said, “One of you will betray Me,” like a word that could have been a warning even to Judas. But he didn’t respond, and something that was there grew until he went out and betrayed his master.

I thought of the parable in Luke 15 of the 2 sons – the prodigal. There came a time when he searched his own heart, “If I remain here I perish.” And he rose up and returned to the father. It was the spirit of the father that searched out the heart of the older son who had always been with the father and felt he had always done his part. It was like receiving his son from the dead. What a joy! But the elder brother didn’t enter into it because there was something in his heart. The spirit of the father who shows us what the true spirit of forgiveness is, didn’t reach his heart, but showed what manner of spirit he was of.

There are many things, as we look into the life of Jesus: His spirit searches our spirits. His word – our hearts, and one would be willing for the searching. There’s wonderful blessing when we respond to His Word, His Spirit, His example; and we are willing for the change, because that means we can continue with Him until this life is over. One would long to be always willing.